Do you ever feel like dying because you failed in love? I sometimes get this feeling when the one I love doesn't love me back, I feel like my heart died and I once again entered the world of fantasies where I always think that he loves me too when the truth is I'm just telling myself that. There is a saying "Love can be fatal", I don't really get it because how can love be that fatal right? Because fatal means deadly. Is love deadly? I think not because when we love we feel happiness like the world are ours but then I realized love can really be fatal, it can be literal or it's just a metaphor but let's go first to the metaphor, isn't it that when we love it's not always a requited love? It may be an unrequited love, when the love is one-sided we feel sad because we keep giving but we never get it back in return so it's like we died with our hearts. Or when we experience the two-sided love at first we feel happy because the love we gave returned sometimes unconditionally, but as time goes by the love is disappearing and it became an unrequited love and that is the moment we feel like dying. Dying because the love we cherished for a long time just disappeared.
Let's go to the literal meaning of love can be fatal, I heard a story, a wonderful yet tear-jerking story about two lovers. There was this college girl who looked like a child, not just the looks but she really is a child because her hormones haven't been develop yet, she met a guy who she fell in love with and the guy also fell for her. As time goes the girl always tell the guy that someday when she becomes an adult he will love her more. Then she disappeared, the guy desperately looked for her but no sign until two years she wrote a letter saying she's in America and living her life as an photographer, and the guy decided to go to America to see her he was too late the girl died, the girl's best friend explained that the girl was trying to be an adult for him but as she tries to be an adult the rate of the incurable disease she inherited from her mother will progress but still for the guy she loves she became an adult even when she knows that she will die becoming one. The guy blamed himself because the girl died because she wanted him to love her more but the best friend explained to him that it is not his fault because the girl really wanted to become an adult. So that's my example in the literal meaning of love can be fatal, she died because she wanted the guy to love her more even though it will risk her life. But she risked it for love. But there are many more examples of the literal meaning of this like when you got your heart broken you tend to be suicidal because you think that there is no purpose of life.
But you are wrong there are still many purpose of life, you just don't live for love, you live for yourself. When you got your heart broken don't think that you want to die because as they say "There are many fish in the sea." so maybe your true love is still there seeking for you so why die just for one love that didn't work when you haven't look properly, maybe your true love is just beside you, just one classroom apart, when you look properly you'll see him. And don't you believe in destiny? Me, I sometimes don't believe in destiny because I believe that I make my own destiny.
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