When I first met you I didn't know that I would fall for you , that I would come to like you. It wasn't my intention to like you because first of all I have my preference in guys which is the following if you must know:
He must be tall, handsome, smart, has fair complexion, has beautiful eyes, athletic, plays instrument especially piano and violin, sweet in his own way, sensitive, classy, and of course he must be rich.
But now to think of it you have some of the things I like most about guys, you play an instrument, you are sweet and sensitive. I don't really know why I fell for you. Maybe my friends are right I'm not really in love with you I was just overwhelmed by the whole idea. But the more days I spend with you the more I think that I'm really falling but am I? I don't really know why I fell for you maybe I was just overwhelmed by you and that's all. If I am right if I'm really in love with you I could say thousands of reasons why but I don't really have much to say, I don't have anything to say. But if it's not love then why do I get hurt? Why is it so painful? Why is the thought of losing you makes me wanna cry? Why can't I forget you? Why can't I force myself to the perfect match for me? Why can't my mind stop thinking of you even just for once? Why did I cry so hard that day? Why must I do silly things just to make you notice me more? Why can't I move on? Why do I always smile when I see you? Why do I support you all the way? Why do I get jealous of the girls you're closed with? Why does my heart can't stop from beating fast whenever I see you or whenever you do something? Why am I choosing you instead of the perfect match for me? Why do I care? Why am I always happy whenever I talk to you? Why am I happy seeing you fulfill your dreams? Your goals? Why?
I though I was really in love with you but now I think I was in love with the idea. And maybe this is good because if I'm not in love with you then I can move on right? I can live my life and be happy. But how can I be happy if you're not there? It hurts but I think I have to accept the fact that
I don't love you.
